I was compelled to investigate, so I embarked on a lifelong experiment to see if a western person could indeed realise what I was being taught and experiencing in the presence of great Buddhist teachers, such as His Holiness the 14th Dalai Lama and Kyabje Zong Rinpoche. Perhaps Lama Yeshe and Lama Zopa Rinpoche saw me as an experiment as well. I followed their advice as we embarked on a 40 year journey of study and retreats. I told Lama Yeshe I wanted to become a mahasiddha, so I trained as the mahasiddhas of the past, which took a lot of years in solitude.
And now, where am I now? I haven’t given up the goal. Lama Yeshe enjoined us to leave behind Tibetan Culture and create a western Buddhadharma. I didn’t see how that could be done if we didn’t first gain realisations. To do that, we need to take time out of the busy life to establish new habits of being. I continue to train as best as I can and I also help other people with similar predilections. Thanks to the kindness, generosity and vision of Geoff Jukes, I now have the best retreat conditions I’ve ever had. Braeview is particularly suited to Chöd practice, which I wish to preserve and make available in the English language